Seeking a close encounter

I am so lucky to be able to make my living doing work that really ticks so many of my boxes, like being creative and productive—it is super satisfying! My struggle is being able to allow myself to pull myself away to play. I fantasize about pulling out juicy paints, beautiful papers, and luscious brushes and just getting lost in the zone. I’ve spent a lot of time collecting, organizing, moving, and reorganizing to create a fun and functional space to let loose and create. It seems odd to me that the only time I actually go out onto the newly named, Patio of Possibilities, is when a friend wants to come over for a play date. Those precious times are about the only time I seem to venture out to allow my inner-child to come out and create. Perhaps the expectations and pressure I put on myself are just more than I can handle. What’s the use of being such an amazing manifester if I am unable to enjoy my bounty. Here’s to having a close encounter with my art supplies soon!